new life

I feel like I am making my way to a new self.  Slowly I am more confident is this new single life.  It is not as easy as I initially thought it would be.
At 36 you are not the youngest perkiest girl out at night.  LOL.
And lets face it, a lot of what guys are looking for is not the girl that looks the most successful.  Or at least if they are they don't have the balls to do anything about it.

I am caught in that middle place in life, don't want to look too young and don't want to feel that old. 
I know what I want and I am determined to not settle.

I think the hardest part at this time is that most men and women around my age have young children and are in family mode.  This means its hard to find new friends.  I have some friends that don't have children but I can't just hang out with them only. 

At this moment I am feeling calm, busy and ready.... ready for life!

Too much

Well there is a lot to say.
Just got back from a family vacation....enough said...lol.

Also I am at a turning point.... its time to officially say goodbye to my ex.  He is coming to pack up some of his belongings and I am just realizing that I have moved on but not said goodbye....
Does that make sense?
I am furious and over my ex but saying goodbye seems to be hard.   I can't figure this out and wish there was someone with some wisdom out there for me.

So whats next?   Good question.....
I am at a stand still with some relationships in my life and questioning if I should start new ones. 
Part of me feels that I need to hold off on new relationships, part of me is ready to get started.
I have so many uncertainties in my head at this time and I'm not sure how to figure any of them out.
So instead I am doing the typical thing, filling my days with work and other non-personal things....

Here is to confusion and frustration.... if anyone has a solution let me know!  Funny since I really only have 1 follower and I talked to her today...