I strayed from me

So I guess it happens, you start off with a plan and its going good then you are sidetracked by something, someone, work....  Next thing you know you almost can't remember the plan.

So I was doing good putting myself first until the past few months.  Then I went off track.  I let someone sidetrack me.  What is my problem?  Why do I keep letting people get me off track?

I truly do believe that if I put myself first, work on me I will find the right person, relationship.  Or it will find me.

So back on track, it is gonna take some work but today I started. 
I didn't wait for anyone, I didn't need to talk to anyone.  I worked, worked out, ate dinner and concentrated on me! 
Tomorrow is the same!

its all okay

I should be sad, my marriage is over, I am going through a horrible divorce, I am loosing another house I worked for BUT...
I'm okay.  And I will be better than okay. 
I will be happy, happier.
I will be with someone that supports me, encourages me and motivates me.
Someone that turns me on mentally, sexually and maybe even spiritually.

I will have an amazing man in my life that will show me what a relationship really is, what a partner really is.
I have a good life, why start looking on the down side now.

Thanks to my friend that went out with me last night.  Had a great time.  I'm very happy we have become so close and can't wait til all the other fun times to come

what happened to zen

So
My days have been very hectic and I have not been living very Zen like. 
I am letting things get to me more than I should.
I am taking on too much
I am not following through with things that make me happy (working out)
I am not completing things I know will make my life better.....

Am I sabotaging myself?
What is wrong with me?

I have decided to take my life back this week.   Call it Scarlets version of reconnecting, centering or...
saying screw everyone else, I have to do me!

So here is to making this happen.  Starting now.  I am emailing work to say I will not be in.
(PS this is unheard of for Scarlet)

OOOMMMM

Independence

Sometimes the simplest things give you the most satisfaction.
Today I had been doing some chores around the house and I noticed that a vine in my flower bed had been blown by the wind.  Hard to explain but the vines had wires to assist in holding them up.  The wires had snapped so I thought, I can fix this.
I found the extension latter, yes extension.  I put it up against the house and fixed the wire.  It was higher than I thought it was gonna be and a little scary BUT it felt good to fix it by myself.  No help from anyone.

It's nice to know you can be independent.  The feeling of accomplishing even such small things. 
Why is that?

So in the wake of this I got the bright idea that this weekend I'm gonna try plumbing. Yes from baby steps to leaps... go big or go home.

On to home depot in the plumbing isle on Sunday.  I will try to find out and fix what is wrong with one of my toilets. 

To be continued.....LOL